firedarkrayne

Dramatic, chaotic, outrageous... that is how life was in the beginning, Stressed, annoyed, drowning... under a sea of problems and feeling unwanted. Feeling drained and depressed, never happy always restricted; Most I be bothered with this trauma... or is this just a nightmare that seems never able to end??? What has changed?? much...very much; in fact, someone changed, or more like it, changed me. Cute and adorable, sweet as ever, more lovable than can be imagined; A sexy chocolate drop that makes me smile, just the thought of her makes me happy. The anticipation of hearing her voice makes my heart stutter, her laugh and gig

Now in the darkness, the void, the darkvoid, the emptiness of light and life; I enjoy the darkness, the blackness of my heart empowers the darkness to grow stronger and stronger. Why??? Why do I need the darkness? Why has my heart turned black and cold to my family and ex-friends? What family? What friends? The only true family I had is gone, a good person, a beckon of light that helped and saved the lives of so many yet tragedy struck and snatched them away in to the darkness; yet not my darkness, their darkness is unattainable other than by death, Death Iwas willing to run to, grab hold of and never let go, yet I was to afraid to follow.

my gf just moved (yesterday) and i miss her soooo much...im bi and i dont have a bf to make me feel better im soooo lonely right now